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Anjail Rashida Ahmad - Award Winning Poet, Educator and Activist

 

 

a wound’s deeper kiss

 

she stood admiring herself in the bathroom mirror,

gazing at the creamy hue of her skin, shaded, beneath

a budding crop of baby dreads. it was her hair that snared

her, drew her into a remembrance of her past, her long-ago

childhood, when the negroes, the coloreds, the pickaninnies

learned to place greater value on the silken headed and

lighter skinned among them. she remembered her grandmother,

a large woman of a nutmeg complexion, as such a one as these.

 

as slowly as a spring unwinds, her hair had begun to kink and curl,

to knot like a solidarity of nappy fists all over her head.

each matted dread had begun to thread into a promise of tomorrow.

each interwoven strand of her hair slid one over the other,


 

a scar, leaving a delicate memory of a wound’s deeper kiss.


 

what some women wear in their bones

 

she sang

about what crowned her,

what it was that made her,

and others of her generation, a woman.

she said she was lucky to have married

some fifty years ago.

 

            in my day,

            a woman was prized

            for her strong bones,

            her steady gaze,

            her pleasant disposition, and hair

            that lifted like glory toward heaven.

 

in the shifting light,

her proud bones softened

beneath blemished patches of skin

stretched over her broad, dished-out face

and the curvature of forearms muscled

from hoisting pots, lifting baskets of laundry

and balancing babies on her hips.

 

she crossed her arms under her breast as we paused

in the clearing. the sky sifted purplish blue

above pine boughs and the dull nodes of heads bound

                                                                              by marriage.

 

bound by blood,

is what she said over and over into the evening

air. she kept repeating it like a lyric

set loose from the strains of a now meaningless song

that turns on its own axis inside the opaque bone of the head

where notions of self are kept, where careless misgivings

can crowd the least developed sense

                                              of one's worth.

 

                           into the furrowed night,

she carried the long harp of her bones

hardened like the inner shell

of an unobtrusive mollusk

                                   singing to itself

in the wet dark of a riverbed,

layering over its bitter bulb of sand,

its miracle of milky stone,

the heart of a pearl borne at great price.


 

 

sunday

 

raising the borrowed ladder, my son

and i clip the upturned lip of the gutters

stuffed like gluttons with pine straw

and the dried remnants of leaves.

 

being the elder,

i press the splintered wood

between my fingers as if to guide

the ascending rungs into the gray mouth

                                                                 of the sky.

 

in this moth-eaten air,

the yellow leaves

scatter among the blades

of grass like willing bones.

our jackets lift

like an anxious bird's tail.

 

                                 i cannot fly.

i am anchored to the earth's

brown moss, but he ascends

the paint-stained rungs

    in his lithe body

                               like one

born again.

 

as tentative wings,

his feet light

against that uneven ground.

 

like a proud roof ornament

seeking the proper direction,

he struts the full measure

of the gables,

                        end to end,

turning, barely kneeling

to counter the slant edge.

 

i marvel at his ascension,

 

the nimble way he hangs

between heaven and earth

as though he belonged

                                     to neither.

 


Contact Information:

Anjail Rashida Ahmad, PhD

Director and Associate Professor,

The Creative Writing Program at A&T

North Carolina A&T State University

Greensboro, NC 27411

Tel: 336.334.7771, ext. 2370

E-mail: arahmad@anjailahmad.com; arahmad@ncat.edu


 


 

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